Off.

I’ve felt off lately. I’m emotional, from one extreme to another. This morning I snapped at co-worker on the phone because I was stressed out. I apologized later because the guilt settled in. And I knew it was unprofessional. I hear certain people speak or a tone in someone’s voice and I want to turn around and just tell them to shut up.

I can pretty much tear up at the drop of a hat lately too. I hear a song, even one lyric, and I feel a lump in my throat. I even got teary during damn American Idol last night and pretty much pulled out the box of tissues while watching Grey’s Anatomy earlier.

I don’t even really know the point of me writing this down right now, but I felt the need to. Maybe I just need a reminder that shitty things happen every now and then. And it takes time to realize that I can’t control everything…as much as I would like to. And that it is OK to STILL be upset. And it takes time.