In an effort to try to find my place in the Big D, I have done nothing but shut myself out. In trying not to rely on the few people I know, I have pushed them aside. I have officially distanced myself from my friends…my best friend.

It hurts to think that someone that I care about so much, someone I would truly be lost without, thought that I wasn’t interested in what is going on in her life. She is my best friend and I want to know everything that is happening with her - good, bad and ugly. And I want her to know I am sorry for being a shitty friend lately.

In my two and half years in Dallas, I have become close with a handful of people and know a handful or two more, but I still don’t feel like I am putting myself out there enough. It’s pretty easy to meet new people, but it’s difficult to meet people you actually want to spend time with. It’s not that I am unhappy, but I think I could be happier, more content.

I don’t really know where to go from here. I am open to suggestions though.